It isn’t easy to deal with stresses again without my old crutch of booze. It can really suck. The world around me is loud, crowded, and smelly. Combine that with the obsessive thoughts that regularly run laps around my brain—it’s a recipe for a meltdown. To my surprise, sprinkling in some meditations completely changed the mix.
Living with post traumatic stress disorder and her bluesy sister, depression, has drastically changed how I handle everyday life. Anxiety and lethargy applied for permanent residence in my body, and I thought I had to fight to have their applications thrown out. Turns out I didn’t have to fight, I had to give up and stop trying to control everything.
No matter how ready this anxiety is trying to make me, there is no way to prepare for doom. Living in fear is a kind of hell.
I’m not incredibly sad all the time. I don’t feel much of anything most of the time. I’m not just sadder than I used to be, I’m less everything.
Up and down emotions. One moment I feel excited and ready to try something new, and the next I am afraid of rejection and hide back in my bed.
Where is the inspiration I used to have? It feels weird to be an adult and sometimes feel like the same sad little kid I once was.
Where have I been since 2015? I’ll update you all soon, but this video will give you a hint as to why I’ve been more or less MIA on the interwebs. We adopted a PUPPY! I’ll post a separate article just about puppy adoption in Buenos Aires and what the process was like for us.…
Christmas is coming and this year I’m not into it. Something you should know about me is that I have always been the spirit of Christmas. As soon as Thanksgiving is over, I would crank up the holiday tunes and watch every Christmas movie I could get my hands on. I cut out snowflakes and…
Colonia del Sacramento in Uruguay moves at a slower pace and is a much needed sanctuary from the never ending commotion of Buenos Aires, across the river in Argentina.
The air. The air is always different. Buenos Aires air is heavy. It’s a city without a filter. Loud noises. Chaotic sidewalks. And a brilliantly blue sky.
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